"I really love you so much that i can't bear to see you go to that kind of places, with people accidentally / non-accidentally touching you. I just don't want my own girlfriend to turn into a bitch one day due to the influences of your friends. I don't want you to make it as a habit of going to clubs almost every 2 weeks ESPECIALLY without me. I really hate it! Just don't let me mark your friends down. Even if you want me to go with you, i still don't want. I am a change person already. But since you have already convinced me to go, i will go. BUT you will see me as a different person in there. I will find the slightest mistakes and start creating trouble. Not with you. But with the people around you. I will make sure you stick with me the whole night."
Woah. I didn't know i have a very protective boyfriend.
You know, i don't know why i can be oblivious at times.
But after what he told me during the bus ride just now,
it has made me realised how lucky i am to have the kind of boyfriend
who would go through the suffer of worrying about his girlfriend too much,
almost every night without fail.
He's the only boyfriend who wants his girlfriend to end up being a good person.
I'm impress and happy about it.
But i don't know why the devil inside of me just won't listen.
Perhaps, i really don't want to miss out anything in life,
especially when fun and enjoyment is concern.
Do you think so?
And, maybe he's right.
I am making it as a habit to go to clubs often.
It aches to see him plead in front of me not to go.
But i can't help it. I seriously need to have fun.
I've been stress with attachment lately.
What's more? With the problems in this house.
I need a moment of time to de-stress myself.
And the only way is to dance like there's no tomorrow.
How?
I S E R I O U S L Y N E E D T O S T O P.
I hope this will be the last time.
